(16) Connecting to my Higher Self

For some time now I have been trying to connect to my higher self, finally success.

What is the Higher Self:

All individuals are one of the many incarnations that the Higher Self or the "real" you, sends to garner experiences on the third density, in this case, Earth. When an individual dies, the energy stream is withdrawn from the physical body. Without the physical constraint, an individual is allowed to spend more time exploring the third, fourth, and parts of the fifth densities in order to keep building a portfolio of life experiences. This is done until the energy stream is completely absorbed back into the Higher Self. This happens when all of the incarnations have achieved their main objectives, at which point the individual and its other incarnations are merged back with your Higher Self, the "real" you.

Actually I do hear my higher self as a small voice in my mind, but I wasn't sure if it was my higher self or my ego getting in the way. I began to read books on psychic development and I always read the area on "How to Connect to your Higher Self". I began to try several ways to try to connect, automatic writing, meditating while sitting. I might have connected but I wasn't sure. Then I read one book that instructed on laying down instead of sitting. This to me was a good idea since I notice that when I sit I tend to get tensed up without realizing it, then I get un-tensed then it happens again. I didn't get anywhere with automatic writing, I guess I didn't give it a chance, but I felt that my higher self doesn't want me to communicate in that way for now. I feel that my HS needs to attune itself to me first and that takes a little time, but in my case since I have always worked on my chakras they were ready to receive the flow of energy my HS would send out so I was confident that it wouldn't take me long and it didn't.

The first time I tried to connect to my HS while laying down I got two symbols. One was a large orange ball turning clockwise and the other was a white door. I was amazed, they were so clear, it was like looking at very clear photographs. The second day I did it again and I saw a hand with palms facing up. I read the meaning of these symbols and the one that got my attention most was the hand. The hand meaning "Healing, protected".

I kept thinking about the hand and in the past psychics have told me that I have the gift of healing. I didn't pay too much attention to it but was curious about the idea and if it was true. It stayed in my mind and I kept thinking to myself "am I neglecting this gift".

To get back to my HS, yesterday mourning I laid down and started to meditate and I opened and energized my chakras to connect, I laid there for fifteen minutes or so. Its very important to make your mind clear of chatter so your mind is completely blank, it was hard in the beginning but I archived it. I began to fill my body with white light and imagined a white screen in my mind. I visualized a white light coming from heaven into my crown chakra. Your HS enters your crown chakra and I definitely felt it before I started to get symbols and photos. I asked my HS in my mind "HS am I a healer", I waited a while and then I saw what looked like a human silhouette, and around that silhouette I saw a color spectrum, it stayed there for a few seconds, then I saw what looked like a color chart and it had level detectors on it that were slightly moving, then it was gone and I didn't see anymore. I started to think about what my HS sent me and I truly feel that my HS was giving me the answer, that yes you are healer and that I should study auras is what my HS was giving me and what I got.

I began to read up on auras and I started to stare at people to see if I saw anything. I see what looks like an invisible movement around people, like when you see heat coming from food that has just been heated up or when you walk on a very hot day on a beach and see the heat coming from the sand. I read that one can see color spectrum's in the aura but I didn't see any or it hasn't evolved in me yet. This takes training, and with proper guidelines to archive this. The colors in the spectrum have meanings and a healer can see illnesses that are there or will start to evolve into something serious. The healer can also sense illnesses by running their hand over a persons body to detect and start the healing process, while running their hands over the person the healer can also get images and feelings from the person. You can also give the person a reading, if you are mediumistic spirits might also come through.

This mourning was a very special morning because I experience something I wasn't expecting. I went through the process of preparing myself. I asked my HS for guidance and you have to give your HS permission to answer you. I laid there and I got some distance viewing images and movies at first, they didn't mean anything to me, I do distance viewing a lot but my mind goes anywhere since I don't direct it. I noticed that my crown chakra started to receive and I saw a white cat, I don't know if this cat is my totum animal since I have heard and felt a dog twice before. Suddenly I started to become light and suddenly my HS grabbed me and I was floating away from my body towards the window, it felt so good. My HS started to take me up into the sky, it was a feeling that I can't explain, it was unbelievable. It was like this beautiful spirit was inside of me and I felt the love and joy so strongly. Then suddenly I was back on my bed and I asked myself "I asked for guidance, I wonder what my HS was trying to tell me".

I finally figured it out, my HS was telling me that "now you know that I am here and I will always be here like I have always been". The joy I felt was indescribable, and telling this to my family is something I feel that they won't understand, except my sister of course since she is psychic herself. I had to share this with you and now I feel like I have my HS there for any questions and guidance I need. Not only that, now I can give more accurate readings with the help of my HS and of course my Spirit Guides. I am going to try this to communicate with my spirit guides and angels as well. I am also going to try automatic writing again when I become more attuned to my divine ones.

Freddie

(15) An e-mail to my sister about our mother

This is an e-mail I wrote to my sister Abigail concerning my mother.

My mother Mercedes is 90 years old and I have always wondered why she knew things that I was trying to hide from her, not items but thoughts.
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Today I will be going to this Spiritualist Church in Manhattan, its in a nice area and I invited Annie to go with me to check it out.

I told mom that I was going to church today at 4:30, and she asked me "what kind of church is it", I told her its an all denominational church. This is where her psychic abilities came in, she told me that its a "Spiritualist Church", I was kinda shocked but I would of expected that from her since she is in fact clairvoyant. One day she she told me, and this is before everything started to happen to me, and I didn't know what to tell her. She said "It feels like bugs in my scalp are moving down", and it happened twice that she told me this. She told me that she told you and you told her "maybe its bugs", I laughed.

When I found out about Chakra's and started meditating my crown chakra started to activate and it in fact felt like bugs crawling down from the top of my head, this is in fact a cleansing process, as I have read. A light bulb went off in my head, "mom's crown chakra has been activating without any meditating at all". Does your crown chakra activate, if yes you know what I mean. My 3rd eye chakra activates all the time, I know what the 3rd eye chakra is but I will tell you some other time, if you don't already know.

So I said to myself "mom needs to be protected, she is being left wide open to psychic negative energies", I decided to talk to mom's spirit guide and wrote down in Spanish so mom can read it out loud "spirit guide I give permission to my son Freddie to make decisions for me as far as protection and my well being" and she did. So I talked to mom's guide and told her guide that my mother doesn't understand what is going on with her and that I want to be able to help protect her by placing protection white light bubbles around her and to help her manage her chakras and help to ground herself" so I have been doing that for some time now. Mom doesn't say anymore to me that someone is kissing her or touching her anymore. I told mom if they are good they can do that, I wonder if those kisses and touching came from dark energies since she isn't experiencing it anymore.

Anyway, mom didn't want me to go to the church, she thinks it has to do something with Santeria, why is it that Hispanic people especially Puerto Ricans think that if your psychic or a psychic medium your automatically into Santeria. She told me "mi abuela era Medium (my grandmother was a medium)" I couldn't believe my ears. I said "she was" I asked her "how do you know about mediums", she said "I know". Its funny about the story she tells me about her grandmother Vera, you have to ask her, I won't go into it.

I know we are all psychic in a way, but we are more than so. Mom gets it from her grandmother and we get it from mom.

Freddie

(14) A false Out of the Body Experience

Today I had what I thought was an Out of The Body Experience (OBE) but it wasn't.

I felt an OBE starting, I was on a space ship and it hit an asteroid belt. The ship was losing control and I slammed into the ceiling of the ship and I could feel the pressure. Then I came back to myself, I felt so heavy and I didn't feel my body at all especially my legs. I decided to try it again, I was totally relaxed as I said I didn't feel my body at all, I began to breath in a rhythm, then I started to OBE again but couldn't float up, so I decided to slowly slip out onto my side.

I couldn't see anything at first so I decided to open my third eye, it slowly started to open, the third eye turned into goggles (funny), I took the goggles off and I saw myself (as I thought) laying down, it really didn't look me and at one point I wasn't laying upright but to my side, then at one point I looked again then I was laying upright. I was out standing what looked like my living room. I decided to walk out the front door, I said to myself I could walk thought it since I am on an OBE, but I couldn't, I opened the door manually, went out the hall and started to walk downstairs, met up with a neighbor, he looked at me strangely and kept going.

I looked outside the hallway window and saw a beautiful town, hilly with beautiful homes and large ponds. I decided to fly out the window and did, I started to fly and I was going over a large pond, I looked to my right and saw what looked like a prom going on, girls and boys dressed very nicely the girls in gowns and the boys in suits. I looked to my left and saw a girl and boy dancing just above the water. I was losing momentum in my flying and before I hit the water I decided to come back or wake up.

This was a lucid dream not an OBE, a very elaborate one at that.

Freddie

(13) Update: Startling news on the about me section on my journal

It turns out the East Indian man and the woman behind him were in fact apparitions that have not crossed over to the other side. The East Indian man was projecting thoughts into my mind making me think that he was my main spirit guide. He is considered to be a false spirit guide. My main guide is in fact female and her name is Louise.

I came to this conclusion after one day I sat down and I asked myself "why did my guide have a woman behind him when I first saw him when I was having an Out of The Body Experience (OBE)", "who is she" I said to myself, then it hit me like a ton of bricks. They are spirits that haven't crossed over. When I came across them I was projecting and my apartment looked very dirty. I saw them and they saw me and this is when the male was attracted to me because I noticed them and stayed in my apartment. I wasn't able to see them in physical life until my gifts became stronger.

The male is very angry and was jealous of me and projected bad thoughts into my mind, he taunted me in a way and came into my dreams. The woman that was with him was like his hostage and wouldn't let her cross over, she seemed very afraid and stayed close to him.

When I came to this realization I was on my coach reading and then my third eye started to activate, then the woman started to come in more clearly when before I only saw him, thinking that it was my guide in another area of the apartment. He kept her out of the way so I wouldn't see her and give him away. I said to them "I know now who you both are and I know what you have been doing to me", it was all clear to me now because of my clairvoyance.

I told him that I forgive him and I will help them both cross over. I read James Van Praaghs book Heaven and Earth when he helped two apparitions cross over to the other side, so I decided to do the same. I told them not to be afraid that they can be free and move on, that they weren't stuck here. I projected a huge white light bubble in front of them with my mind and told them go on, you can go home to your family and friends, they are waiting for you.

They both were hesitant and I kept telling them the same thing. The woman became strong and walked into the white light bubble and she was gone. The male didn't want to go so I told him "do you want to stay here alone for eternity, she is gone now", I felt that he began to weep because I sensed that he was very scared, he must have done things in his life that weren't very good and was afraid of judgment. I kept talking to him then finally he walked in the white light bubble and was gone, I was very emotional and I sensed that my guides were proud of me, was this a test.

Freddie

(12) Spirit guide in disguise

Last night I went to bed as usual. I said to myself that I will try to have an Out of the Body Experience (OBE) tonight but if I feel that my restless leg syndrome starts up in the slightest I will move around and turn to stop it and go to sleep instead. This was the case but I had a plan. I noticed on my last OBE that I unknowingly did Dr. Albert Taylors technique called the "pre-flight technique" where you would get up during the night and stay up for about an hour to an hour and a half. During this time you can't eat anything but you can drink water. So I got up at 4:30 a.m., read a book and at about 6:45 a.m. I decided it was time.

I got into bed and I did Dr. Taylor's technique of laying in the "Earth position", where I will lay face up with my arms to my side. I started to meditate and I breathed in through my nose and out through my mouth in a rhythm, getting totally relaxed. I couldn't get sleepy so I turned to my side and said to myself "fine I will get sleepy this way and when I do get sleepy I will immediately go back to the earth position". This is what happened, so I started to OBE but I forgot to tell myself to float up, float up, I started to get out on my own, which didn't work and I came back to myself. Why does one forget to do things when an OBE starts, it must be the excitement.

So I tried again, and got out. I was standing in my bedroom. Then as I was about to fly out the window a friend of mine appeared. An old ex co-worker of mine named Isabella. She said hello Freddie and I said hello back. I asked "what are you doing here", I forgot that I was in the astral plain and didn't realize that she wasn't Isabella. She asked me "what are you doing with yourself", I told her well I am taking care of my 90 year old mother and freelancing at the moment, and that I produced two cooking DVD's and selling them. I began by telling her of my gifts of clairvoyance and clairsentience.

Then she told me "you should think more about your future and become more serious about it". Then I realized that she wasn't Isabella, dumb me. I looked at her and asked her "who are you really". She looked at me and smiled because she new that I had detected her. She was my one of two spirit guides I have (one male (main) and one female), not my main guide but my female guide. She is here to help me in my career and or money issues, now I know.

I see her sitting in my living room with my male guide, and they are right there as I type this. I felt that this was an opportunity for me to ask her her name. I said "quickly please tell me your name" because I was excited and could come back to myself any second, she began to talk but it was gibberish, and it was done intentionally, its not time for me to know their names yet. I got a bit upset and I told her "but I can't understand you, say it clearly please", again gibberish. Then I came back to myself.

As a person advances with their gifts more guides and Angels appear to give guidance in a lot of areas. Last night I was watching "Medium" and the only reason I watch that show is because they are real stories by a true psychic medium called Alison Dubois, I am reading one of her books right now. I am advancing very quickly in my clairvoyance because I knew what was going to happen before it happened on the show and this is how I detected my female guide, my intuition, it came to me.

Freddie

(11) A trip to I don't know where

I am so excited about this because I have been having a problem in initiating an Out of the Body Experience (OBE) because of my Restless Leg Syndrome (RLS) problem. I know Karen would be very happy to read this because she has been there helping me through this since I told her about it, thank you Karen.

I have been online to read up on how I can get a restful sleep and some of you might be very interested on this. I read that staring at television or computers for a long time during the evening can hinder your chances of falling asleep right away because television and computer monitors send some signals to your brain that inhibit sleep. I also read up on foods or liquids that promote sleepiness. I bought a box of caffeine free chamomile tea because it calms the nerves and promotes sleep, I was set.

The first night I turned off my television and computer two hours before I went to bed had a cup of the tea and I started to read till about midnight. I went to bed and fell asleep immediately. I slept the whole night and I didn't have a bout with RLS, I was happy. Last night on Friday I went to bed and said to myself maybe I will have an OBE, I didn't but I couldn't sleep and got up at about 5 am, made myself a cup of coffee and sat down and read. At about 7 am I decided to go back to bed and so I did.

Suddenly I start to have an OBE, I became lucid immediately, but I was having a hard time getting out, then I came back to myself and I noticed that I had my arm across my face, this was the reason I couldn't get out. Then I did what Dr. Albert Taylor does which he calls the earth laying position, I lay down with my head not too high up and placed my arms on the side. I began to relax and meditate, my RLS didn't occur, thank God. Then suddenly I start to OBE again, this time mentally I said to myself float up, float up, I started to float up, then stand on floor, stand on floor, then I stood on the floor. Next it was so exciting and emotional for me because I didn't have an OBE in about three months because of the RLS. I have experienced OBE since I was a child and it is a part of me, so it felt like I was missing a limb, I wasn't myself.

Okay so I am here now and I said its a beautiful sunny day, then I flew out the window and I was flying around happy as can be. I decided to land and I landed on this busy street, I noticed that I wasn't wearing any pants, so I thought pants and I got pants, I felt embarrassed and laughed. I started to walk around, I realized that I was on a higher astral plain, thank God after not having an OBE after three months I am glad I didn't end up at a lower level. The people were very busy, working, selling food and items. It was a beautiful city and clean and modern. I didn't get a chance to talk to anyone, I was just sight seeing. I looked up at one point and saw a city in the sky far far up. I decided to fly there but I couldn't take flight because I was starting to chime out (starting to come back to my physical body). I tried to clear myself up but I couldn't and slowly came back, but before I came back I heard this person singing, with a beautiful voice and music, sounded a bit like Barbara Streisand, but wasn't. If I new musical notes I would be rich right now, I wonder if we have heard music here on Earth from the astral plains. If some musical artists go to these astral plains and copy or get musical inspiration from there, ever wonder that? This made me think about that being possible.

I am happy I am over this and back to my old self.

Freddie

(10) My new psychic friend.

There is a woman in my building and I have always felt drawn to her. Friday I was walking into my building and she was walking out, I suddenly felt the urge to grab her arm. The woman is very psychic, I picked it up on her. I started to pick up on the spirits that are around her, it was a flood of spirits and I picked up on one, her aunt, I told her her aunts name, and she realized that I was like her, because I was right. Annie smiled with me and she realized that I was very psychic like she is. These spirits are very concerned about Annie I felt and didn't know why yet.

Her background is from India born here in US. We had to sit and talk so she invited me to her apartment. I always noticed something about her like she was on cloud nine or something. She was being flooded with spirits and she needed to be grounded to have more control. When I walked into her apartment and sat down, it hit me, there was a lot of negativity in her apartment, I felt like i was being suffocated, I immediately started to protect myself. I had to ask her for glass of water. She asked me if I was ok, I told her "no", I explained to her that there is something very wrong here. I asked her if when she is lying down "does she feel something trying to grab her astral legs out of her bed" her answer was "YES" I do. This thing is fresh and wicked and is a sexual dirty entity. It didn't want me there, it was making feel like I wanted to leave because I detected it and saw it in my mind.

I told her that there is a low level entity here in her apartment and it has been with her for a very long time, it was use to her and very hard to get rid of. No wonder she always looked to me like she was on cloud nine, this entity was controlling her and draining her of her energy. Saturday morning I went to her apartment again and we went through the whole apartment cleaning it with sage, prayer and sea salt, before we started I asked her to open the main door to her apartment and she did. We started the cleaning from her bedroom burning the sage and I was saying the prayer, when we got to the main door, we drove it out and shut the door and said you are not welcome in here, go back to that hole you came from in the name of God.

After we finished she felt like a ton of negativity has been released from her. She told me "I feel so clear now", I told her yes, but that she has to keep protecting herself because this thing is use to her and it won't give up, but eventually it will lose power and dissipate because it won't be able to siphon her energy anymore and disappear. I was supposed to help Annie, that is why I detected her and detected this entity. The apartment is clear now and now I don't feel the way I did when I first went in there.

Before this happened I spoke my guide and said "I wish I can find a psychic that I can study with, that lives near by", here she is its Annie. I was suppose to find her and I did. Now I am giving her books to read and helping her to stay protected. She is a very strong psychic but this entity was blocking her from detecting it. She needed someone else to detect it like myself and I did.

We psychics are fortunate to have the ability to detect these entities. There are millions of people out there that have these entity attachments that don't know it. Annie had this entity attached to her before her psychic abilities blossomed, so this entity found ways to hide from her. Always walk in the light.

Freddie

(9) My 2008 Tarot Card Readings

These are some of the Tarot card readings I did for the year of 2008. You will need to have Adobe's PDF reader installed on your computer. If not you can go here to download and install it:

Mecca's Reading

Mikaela's Reading

Karla's Reading

(8) My Erroneous Out of the Body Experience

This experience to me was a funny one as you will soon see why. After the Emme Katherine Park distance healing session I did (story is on my journal titled "My Distance Healing for Emme Katherine Park", I began to write about it and wrote about it on my journal.

Since now I am not taking my restless leg syndrome medication anymore I said to myself "now I can have an Out of the Body Experience (OOBE) and not be disturbed by RLS anymore". I was happy because the RLS and the medication was inhibiting me from going into an OOBE and it was recking havoc on my intuition. I stopped doing card readings because of this, I stopped until I finished taking the medication and now waiting until the medicine is totally out of my body, I will start my card readings again.

I said my protection payers for the whole day and I was ready.

I brushed my teeth and washed my face and went to bed. I was at the earth lying position, I laid down flat with one pillow because your head can't be up to high, looking up with my arms to my side palms side down. I got this technique by reading Dr. Albert Taylor's book "Soul Traveler". He calls this technique the preflight technique, funny name. He also calls OOBE "Soul Traveling", I like that name. I began to relax and went into a mild meditation, my imagery was "I am an eagle soring in the sky through green meadows, pristine rivers". I wasn't sleepy yet and it was because I was hyper from the healing I did earlier. Its much easier for me to sleep on my side facing to my right, I am use to that, so I did it to get me started.

Suddenly I am in my living room, I was aware of what was going on. Reading an experience by a member of astral_explorers · ASTRAL TRAVELERS & SPIRIT EXPLORERS, Karen, I decided to to take flight, I jumped out of the window and began to fly around, I was saying to myself but didn't pay too much attention to it "this doesn't seem like an OOBE to me", it was different. I gave it no thought anymore and kept flying around. I decided to land and there were many people walking around. I went into this tavern sort of place. There were about eight people inside the tavern. I started to have a conversation with someone but then I started to feel like I was fading out, it didn't feel like I was snapping back into my body, so I concentrated and came back, but it all changed. The people were sitting down eating, I saw cookies and cake and I asked if I can have a piece of cake, someone said "yes in the refrigerator you can find some". I took out a small piece of chocolate cake, my favorite. I ate it, I started to fade out again, came back again. This time I was standing in a room, then I thought "let me see if I can contact my spirit guide" since I wanted to know his name. I called out "spirit guide please come to me", suddenly this cat that looked like a cat I had as a child called Goldy started coming towards me and stopped. I asked the cat "are you my guide", a spirit guide can take any shape they want to. The cat said "yes", I was so happy, then I asked "can you tell me your name". The cat said "Bernard", I was so happy that now I knew the name of my guide. Then the cat turned into a young woman about the age of twenty one or so. She started to talk to another woman, I stood there looking and listening to them.

Then I lost control and faded back and came out of my OOBE as I thought. I started to think about it and I realized that I was having a lucid dream instead of an OOBE, I said to myself "this sure fooled me". To those that have OOBE's and that are experience in OOBE's this can happen. OOBE's are different from lucid dreams because when an OOBE starts you are completely aware of it and lucid and can be very clear, when you have a lucid dream it can start out as a regular dream then turn into a lucid dream when you become aware that you are dreaming, but in my case it started out as a lucid dream, this is what fooled me, this erroneous OOBE was too changing and erratic and I didn't feel myself coming back from an OOBE as I always do.

I guess I was so excited to have an OOBE again that it got the best of me. I wonder if the cat (Bernard) was really my spirit guide, because guides do enter your dreams to give you guidance. Well from now on I will call my guide by Bernard until otherwise. Guides communicate with you when you are ready, I am not rushing it because there are some issues that I have to work out, even though I long for it as do many other people.

Freddie

(7) My Distance Healing for Emme Katherine Park

At the Seeker's Circle forum I met a woman that calls herself MichelleJoy, but her name is Michelle excluding the Joy part, but she is a joy. She wanted someone to pray for her because she is a manic depressive and was having a very hard time then. This was the first communication she sent me on Seeker's Circle.

"Not that I would care mind you. I was reminded of when I first found seekers and needed to choose a name as I so desired to get into the heart of this site quickly............Well, Michellesjoy was the first thing that popped into my head............merely a question for me...............where had all my "joy" gone.

If your time allows and you feel at all compelled, I would love to hear a few words of inspiration as I have had a more then usual painful couple of months. I am drained emotionally and physically and feel the ugly head of an even deeper depression looming. It's been a long four years of this depressed and manic state however I will tell you that "Hope" still remains~~

Welcome to seekers Latin Guy.............and the next time you get a skeptic........astral travel on their ass, their mischief will hardly catch up with you!!!

Light, Everlasting~~
Michelle"

Being new to a lot of what was going on in my life in terms of my gifts I didn't feel confident enough to proceed with someone I felt needed someone with more experience then me, so I digressed and kept going with the conversation. I listened to her like no one ever did, that is my calling. The conversation went on and on, she started to feel better because she had someone that understood her. I myself have been in black holes of depression that I couldn't get out of, but her condition was a medical one. It turns out that the doctors couldn't find the right medication for her and eventually did. She is so thankful to me and I felt strange that I made someone feel the way she did about me because she kept telling me to this day that God sent me to her, and that she loves me, not in that way mind you but as a dear friend that cares. She calls me and we have great conversations now. She has a four year old daughter name Bianca, the love of her life.

One day she emails me and this is a small part of her email:

"I need to get to bed, long day tomorrow for me, which is a good thing I suppose since not too long ago I was having a problem just leaving the house... I do have a couple of things I would like to get your advice on..................maybe I will try and give you a call tomorrow if I get a free moment. I have a job opportunity presenting itself that I am not completely positive about or I am..........................I don't know? The other question was about my sister."

I thought to myself "the other question was about my sister", I didn't know what she meant and waited for what she had to tell me. One day I am on my computer and she starts a chat with me with AOL's instant messenger. At one point I asked her "what was the question about your sister". She said that her sister who is really her foster sister has Lymphoma Cancer. I didn't know what to say but sorry. She knew that I was a healer because I told her that I had been to my "healing room", this story is here so if you haven't read it please do, it's called "I crossed over and saw".

She wanted me to pray for her and perhaps do a distant healing prayer for Emme, that is her sisters name. Emme lives in Arkansas and is 42 years old. I told her that I will pray but that I have no experience in doing a distant healing prayer. She said that is fine, I asked more questions about her sister.

I started to think and I said to myself "but why don't I know how to do distant healing?", I have been to my healing room and I have been doing healing for a long time, I just didn't remember it. I started to look up distant healing on the search engines on the Internet and found lots of ways to do it. One was very simple so I decide to use it. It said that I should have a locket of hair or a photo of the person or a small doll representing the person. I didn't feel the doll was right for me because it felt like I was going to do Voodoo so I picked the photo part of it.

I emailed Michelle and asked her for a photo of Emme. She emailed the photo to me and I printed it out. I placed it on a table with lite white candles on both sides.

I sat down and and I stared to talk to God after I finished my protection prayers, I started my conversation with God very emotionally.

"God there is woman by the name of Emme Katherine Park , she was born on 1966 and now lives in Arkansas. Emme has Lymphoma cancer and now it is spreading. God I know that you gave me the gift to heal and I have been to my healing room many times to heal others. You gave me this gift for a reason and I am going to use it today to heal Emme God. I want all of my Spirit Guides, Angels, Jesus and you God to assist me. This is Emme's photo and now God I will being"

I sat down and lite a white light incense, put on some mediation music, lowly. I sat down and I started to meditate. I started to do the healing as if I did it many times before, which I did. In my mind I kept mentioning "Emme Katherine Park", over and over again "this is her photo, she lives in Arkansas", suddenly the top of my head started to tingle profoundly and my 3rd eye started to tingle shortly after that. I saw myself on the astral plain. My spirit guides were with me, the tingle is a sign that they are here with me. I imagined God's healing gold light showering me and all of my chakra centers were opened, vibrating and turning. I said "Now send this golden healing light to Emme and cure her, I saw the light turn and swoop way out to where it was supposed to go, I kept sending the golden light to Emme all the way to Arkansas. My body was vibrating, chanting in mind over and over again. Suddenly I started to see Emme about three times, she was sitting down. Suddenly I felt joy and peace and I knew it was over.

It took me forty five minutes to do the distant healing.

Freddie

(6) My bout with Restless Leg Syndrome

For the past couple of months when I would try to fall asleep or perhaps have an out of the body experience it has been grueling because I acquired Restless Leg Syndrome (RLS). RSL is when your legs feel restless and uncomfortable and I have to move around and or rock myself to sleep.

Fortunately there is medication for it, at the moment I am taking Requip which inhibits my astral projecting and my intuition has gone out the window. It also makes me feel unattached from my spirit guide because I can't sense him around me, but I know he is there cheering me on.

I will be myself again hopefully by the end of April, then I can continue with my journeys, visits from beyond and my story telling. See you again in May.

Freddie

(5) I crossed over and saw

February 12th, 2008

Today I decided to take a nap because I felt a bit sleepy, and at times when I feel this way is because something or someone wants to communicate with me through astral projection or OOBE (Out of the Body Experience). I have been astral projecting since I was a child and recently at 50 1/2 I have become more sensitive, I am now 51. I started out by seeing faces flash by, like a slide show if you will. Besides other experiences today was so different. I went into an astral trance and started seeing stars and planets, I was flying in space. Then I started to see faces again, I decided to step back and say "hello", all of a sudden I was in this room, I saw people walking around and someone said "hello" back. It was a strange atmosphere, very different from our earthly plain, it was kinda florescent but also a bit dark. I couldn't see faces just dark entities, like well defined shadows.

One sight in particular is that I looked further and saw a person lying on a bed, with this yellow light around him, a gold light, the light of healing. He had a bed spread over him, it looked like he must of just died or he is being healed.

This is somewhat what it looked like, the figures were more subdued,

and there was far more detail in the room.

I decided to place a post on the James Van Praagh message board about my experience, and I did. I waited a few days and one day I get a response to my post. Someone who I will call TheHealer (not the persons real name on the JVP board) wrote as follows:

"Fred,
I've been there and I could tell you what the room is and who the "people" are, but I have the feeling that you would be better served to learn this on your own. Please know I'm not being secretive here, or wishing to cause you any frustration. The fact that you have been there means that you can return at will, you just have to want to. So my advice is to do just that - go back there and ask any one of them where you are. They will tell you. You may also want to ask "who are you?" and they will also tell you that. This is something you can do for yourself and I think you will get a much more clear answer by doing so."

Yes I was frustrated to say the least. So for some reason my intuition started to kick in, I automatically went to the chat section on the JVP site, and behold there was TheHealer like he or she (I don't know the persons sex) was there waiting for me I felt. I started a private conversation with TheHealer, here is the whole chat transcript on PDF format:

My chat transcript with the TheHealer

That chat was so weird to me, TheHealer sounded like he or she was an entity, the way that he or she communicated with me, that is why I asked if he or she was my guide. Its also very funny that I have gone to the JVP chat many times after that and I have never seen this person there ever again.

I have been to "My healing room" many times but I have never remembered until now. I have been told that I am a very powerful healer by psychics. This is an area I am exploring now to see how can I use this healing gift, any suggestions?

Freddie

(4) Mary at the spiritualist store with pancakes

March 2008

One day I was doing some errands and on my way back I noticed this Spiritualist store where they sell all kinds of candles, incense and so on. I decided to walk in and take a look. I was the only person in the store. This very nice African American woman was there behind the counter. She asked me if I need help and I told her that I was just looking for now, that I live in the neighborhood and never noticed that this store was here.

I told her I will be back to pick up a few items. I walked out the door and went to the corner to cross over, then I stopped and I felt a little pressure on the right side of my head. I saw the lady in the store and this old lady behind her. The old lady looked a little serious because I think she wanted me to go back. I told her mentally that I will go back in a few days to buy some incense. She became very happy, very cute old lady, first she picked up a plate of pancakes, then she but the pancakes down and picked up a bouquet of flowers, she was thanking me and sending me love for being nice to her.

I asked her for her name, I sensed the letter "M", so I asked her is it "Mary" "Martha", she laughed and shook her head yes, compared to other spirits it was so easy for me to pick up on Martha. Martha I asked, she shook her head yes. So it was Martha then. I asked her who is the lady in the store to you, I can't hear them yet so I have to wait until they shake their heads yes or no. Is it your daughter, a friend, your granddaughter, she shook her head very fast to yes, so its your granddaughter in the store, yes she nodded. I said to her ok Martha I will be going back to the store in a few days. For the rest of the day she kept showing me flowers, thanking me. I said ok Martha you can come back when I am on the way to the store. She smiled and faded out.

So the day came to go back to the store, Martha was ready and there in my head. I walk into the store and these things have to be done very delicately, again I was the only one in the store, funny, so I started off by asking her granddaughter about the Tarot cards on sale there. Then I began by saying "I have something to tell you, and being that you run a store such as this I think you will be open to it", she said fine what is it. I told her the story about what happened and I asked her "your grandmother is she still with you or has she passed", she said she passed. I asked her, does her name start with an "M", she said yes her name is "Mary", ok so her grandmother said her name is "Martha", I told her I asked your grandmother if her name was Mary or Martha and she nodded yes to Martha, she said yes, her name was Mary Martha, but they called her Martha. Oh I see I told her, your grandmother showed me a plate of pancakes. She said she didn't know anything about that because her grandmother died when she was very young. She is showing me lots of flowers right now, that means she loves you and that she comes around you a lot.

She said yes lots of mediums tell me the same thing, its not the first time. I laughed and told her that her grandmother is very sweet. She looked at like "she was?". I asked her if she can ask her family about the pancakes, maybe she made some very good pancakes and was very well known for them. She said that she will.

I bought my incense said goodbye and left. Mary Martha was a very nice person and was loved very much, I felt it. This was one of my easiest encounters and rewarding.

Freddie

(3) I went throught an astral worm hole

About three months ago I went to sleep and had one of my unscheduled astral projection experiences. I started to project and I was standing in my living room. I started to walk towards a small bench I have in the living room. Suddenly I felt a force take me, I slipped into what is called a worm hole, similar to the one on the television show Stargate SG1.

I was flying at very high speed through a tunnel and it looked metallic. It was so accelerating and exciting. At the end I ended up under the bluest water I had ever seen. I wasn't drowning because I was in astral form. I managed to surface by swimming up. I looked around and saw what looked like a pier dock. At the end of the dock I saw this very strange looking being, it looked like a beast, like a big foot type of beast, but not quite. It looked friendly and smiled at me, so it was an intelligent being. I swam to the surface on the beach and to my amazement I saw all kinds of beings, not all the same but all different.

I started to take a good look at them, it was like being on a beach here on earth, with people having fun and conversing and enjoying the beach. Some were wearing sun glasses. I was in another galaxy, an international one, beings from other planets getting along with one another. Some looked human like me. I was so excited that I came back to myself and got up and smiled at the experience. I tried to go back, I did once but never made it there, I came back to myself, I hate when that happens. Someday I will go back.

Freddie

(2) The Asian woman wants attention now!

April 9th 2008

I went grocery shopping for a few items I needed. I wanted to get some fresh bean sprouts from this Asian store I usually go to. I was browsing the store when suddenly I felt a bit dizzy and a bit of pressure on the right side of my brain, someone was trying to come in.

Suddenly I started to see an Asian woman in my mind. She looked desperate because she thought finally she can get a message to someone in the store using me. She started to move her mouth very fast, I asked her "to slow down please". She started to smile and slowed down. She thought that I was going to leave the store before she sent the message to someone in the store.

I asked her her name, she was moving her mouth, but I couldn't understand her, it was an exotic Asian name, well exotic to me. She noticed that I couldn't get her name and she became somewhat upset. Her name started with an "M", but that was it. When I got to the counter the only person in the store was the man behind the counter, so it was him she was trying to communicate with. I made sort of a fool of myself because I asked him straight out "do you know someone with a name that starts with M", in the mean time she was showing me flowers, meaning she is sending her love to him. He looked at me like why is he asking me that, with a smile. I should of started out by telling him that I am a bit psychic first. He said no that he didn't know anyone with a name that started with an M. I should of said deceased, but that would have been even more weird.

I left it at that because I felt silly. I paid for my bean sprouts and walked out the store. The Asian woman was with her eyes wide open, like "where are you going". I told her "I come here all the time, in the mean time I need to get your name straight". She agreed and started to calm down. Now I am trying to find out her name, its going to take some time because my clairaudience hasn't fully developed, or I will have to wait until I astral project and see if I see her.

Freddie

(1) Nicola's deceased mother communicates with me

April 8th 2008

My friend Nicola asked me to see if I can contact her mother Ingrid who was born in Germany and died in 2004. It was like making a telephone call for me. I asked my guide to please contact Ingrid (last name to remain unmentioned) was born in and died on and her daughter is Nicola. Nicola wants to know how her mother is, can you please locate Ingrid for me guide, thank you guide.

I was in the kitchen cooking and suddenly I felt a bit dizzy, a bit of pressure on the right side of my head, which is the psychic side of the brain. I start to see in my head a woman, smiling and very excited. I asked her out loud, I am not use to communicating telepathically yet, I have to hear my voice, I asked "hello who are you", I saw her lips move and it looked like she was saying "inpid", I asked "in grid", it was kinda funny, she shook her head no and repeated it, I can't hear the spirits yet, but my guide says I will soon. She repeated it, and then it hit me ooohh, "Ingrid", she was so happy that she started to send images to me very fast, a bouquet of flowers, meaning love and she is comes around often and then she shows me a heart, sending kisses and she is in joy right now, but very fast, I asked her to please slow down. She of course was referring to her daughter Nicola. My guide works very fast in contacting loved ones for me.

I said "hi Ingrid", "Nicola asked me to see if I can get a hold of you, she wants to know how you are doing", she smiled and showed me flowers with a big smile, I took that as "I am fine". I asked her "are you with family there", she said yes, so this blond haired man comes into the picture. I asked "who is the man", she moved her lips and it looked like "a friend". It was a friend that died. "what is his name", it looked like she was saying George or Jorge, they are German so I think it might have been Jorge.

Ingird became a bit sad, I asked, "what is wrong Ingrid", I felt like she wanted to apologize to someone, that someone was her daughter Nicola. Ingrid showed me a liquor bottle, she put Nicola through a lot because of her drinking and she felt very sad about it. I told her "I will discuss that with Nicola", but she loves you very much and wanted to see if you were fine, and you are. I will tell her everything Ingrid. So it ended there and I got prepared to tell Nicola of what happened with my communication with her mother.

I called Nicola after I got the whole story together as it happened. I told her and she was so happy that I got through to her mother Ingrid. I told her everything before the sad part. I told her that her mother wanted to apologize for what she put you through with the drinking. She was surprised that I new that. She said "she doesn't have to apologize to me", I told her she already did Nicola, and she kinda laughed because it happened already. Then she started to cry, I told her I will leave you alone right now and I will chat with you later.

Its very rewarding to me to do this, when a spirit wants to convey something that they feel bad about to a love one, it brings them more into a state of peace.

UPDATE June 2, 2008: Nicola when to Germany and came back. She sent me this email:

my sister had an interesting observation when I told her about you seeing my mother. I had given her 3 cds that I had transferred from audio tapes. these were sent between my mother and her parents when she first came to america as a young lady. in it she said to greet jorg. we think he might have been a boyfriend because her parents then say that he came by to walk her dog.

Freddie

About Me

My parents moved from Puerto Rico to New York City in the mid 40's. I was born in Manhattan in 1957, and I was raised in Spanish Harlem also called El Barrio along with two sisters and three other brothers. El Barrio begins at East 96th street to about East 125th street, that is where Black Harlem begins.

My sister and I were playing on the fire escape one day. I was six and my sister was eight. We were by the fire escape window and looking past the kitchen and into the living room. All of a sudden we see this figure dressed in a robe and had his head covered with the robes head cover which looked pointed at the top. He seemed to be in a hurry like he had an appointment or something. The apparition was transparent, we can see straight through it. It entered a wall and that was it. I looked at my sister and asked her "did you see that", she said yes and little did we know that that was the start of something to come. I didn't see the apparition anymore and as adults I told the story to some family members and my sister was there. Later she told me that she saw it several times again. Maybe that apartment was a passage way or route for this messenger, I say messenger because it wasn't a ghost, he had a job to do. That is why he was such in a hurry to get to where he had to go.

Not too long ago I was getting ready to go to bed, I shut my eyes and suddenly I started to see faces, like a slide show of faces. Some were in color, some were outlines of faces. They of course were spirits trying to communicate with me. I wasn't scared or felt threatened at all. Then on another night I saw a green hew light on my bed post, it was strange, it was moving around slowly. I told my sister about it and she said that she has seen that light as well. She told me that it was my spirit guide and that the light was a good light.

I am a medium, clairvoyant, clairsentient and astral project. My sister told me that she is a clairsentient and she also astral projects, which didn't surprise me.

I didn't know what was happening to me and felt that I should look into it. I felt guided in some way and later it becomes apparent to me that I was right. One day I decided to go online and do a search for web sites that deal with the paranormal. I came across one that lets their members do practice readings to those that want them on a message board type of interface. I began to read a lot of threads on the board and was fascinated by some of the readings and the feedback they got back from the questioner, the person they did the reading for.

I came across a thread and for some reason I decided to put my two cents into it, again unknowingly being guided. A young woman going by the name of CountryGirl on the board wanted to find a watch that a now deceased boyfriend gave her. She was very worried that she lost it and was asking for help in finding it. Here is the actual thread of what transpired on PDF format. On the board I go by LatinGuyNY, please read.

Helping CountryGirl find her watch (click to read)

I couldn't believe it myself, I was beside myself. I sat down and I said to myself "what is going on here, how could this happen?" I was accelerated, joy came rushing into me, I felt different already. My life was changed from that very moment, I felt like I was re-born.

I was guided to that board for this very reason by my spirit guide. He wanted to show me who I was, and he sure did.

I saw my guide about a year ago, but I didn't know he was my guide (not true more follows). One day I was astral projecting and I was standing in my living room. I saw this man, he was dressed in East Indian type of clothing in white, with a small white turban. There was a woman behind him, she looked like she was in her 60's, she seemed confused. I thought they were just regular everyday spirits. We are spirits housed temporarily in our physical bodies.

The Eastern Indian man looked at me and smiled, he didn't say anything. I said something to them but I don't remember exactly what I said to them but it was something like "Don't worry, everything is going to be fine". Then I came back to myself and got up, I thought about it but didn't give it much thought because it wasn't the first time I had encountered spirits in the astral plain.

A few days later after the CountryGirl experience I went to bed and I started to look at the middle of my living room, I started to talk to my spirit guide, then all of sudden I started to see a transparent image of a male dressed in the very same East Indian clothing. He was friendly and I asked "are you my guide", he nodded "yes". I said to myself "I think I am seeing things", so I turned around and went to sleep. In the morning I got up and I usually get a cup of coffee and turn on my computer to check my email. I look towards the middle of the living room and again he was there. I said a protection prayer or three, but he wouldn't go away, I even placed a white light bubble around him with Gods love, and it didn't work, because he is one of Gods servants. I didn't know his name so I called him "Andress" for now. I bought a deck of Tarot cards and I started to communicate with him using the Tarot. Then I realized that I had seen him before about a year ago. I asked him "that was you with the confused lady, right?", he said yes. Stories will come so please come back to read them.

I have never encountered spirits awake yet, meaning walking around like in the movie the Six Sense. I do see them mentally and they do communicate with me, that will be on a few of my stories to come. Please click on the stories to your right, expand the the story list by clicking on the little gray arrow by the year.

Thank you for taking the time to stop by. Please come back to read some of my actual stories, I add stories as they happen. I would love to read your comments, thank you.

Freddie

Update: Startling news on the About Me section



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